Here in This Moment

So here I am ready to have all of you
So here I am waiting for you and…

Nothing can change the way I feel when I’m with you
You give me a peace that surpasses all understanding
And no one can tell me there's a better place than with you
You give love everlasting

Oh, here You come
With Your arms open wide
Oh, cause You are the one
Who fulfills all my desires

You are love, You are life
You're the air that I breathe
You're my day and my night
You’re my joy, You’re my peace
You're the wings for my flight
And vision to my sight.
You are truth, You are power
You gave me faith to believe
Brought me straight to my knees
Now I'm standing
Here in this moment, with You
There's nowhere I'd rather be

There's only one who can truly satisfy me
Only you can give me everything that I need
And as high as the heavens are above the earth
You’ve shown me your love so unconditionally

Oh, here You come
With Your arms open wide
Oh cause You are the one
Who can fill me with this fire

There's nothing that I can do without You
I know life only because of Your love
I just can't breathe without You
I'm so crazy about You
And I know love only because of Your life
Oh You overwhelm me with Your love.
Oh You overwhelm me, You overwhelm me!

I've listened to this song a numerous amount of times today since after hearing it at church this morning. Pastor Fernando talked this morning about dissatisfaction and how the world we live in tells us that "if I just had a little bit more, I'd be happier" and that sometimes how we live reveals what we believe ... that what Christ offers is not as good as what this world offers. He then shared how God's heart breaks when I don't find Him to be enough in my life... when really when I think about it, what God offers is not only enough but more than enough. As I listen to this song, my eyes fill up with tears as I think about how I look to everything else but Him when really the only thing I need to realize is how MUCH the Lord loves ME and simply wants me! He is here with arms open wide and the ONLY one who can fulfill all my desires... He IS love and life and still yet, I look to find fulfillment from other things. To sit and think about this brings me to my knees and leaves me overwhelmed...

The past couple weeks have been really draining emotionally and spiritually. I feel like

I'm running on empty. We, as staff, have been trying to figure out what an authentic community of ALOHA looks like within the movement here and just really feeling the reality of the enemy at work. As we've been working hard and trying to balance life, I've realized that my focus has not been on the Lord but more with being preoccupied with the "stuff to do"... I've felt disconnected with Him and am desperately looking to feel and see Him again. He is good and I know that and I just need to let Him fill me.

I don't write these things to worry you or to be discouraged because the Lord IS good and He is doing great things! He is moving in this place and a praise is that our 7th team member, Gen is actually coming Thursday, just in time for our Fall Getaway!!! :o) But the reality is that there is an enemy and as I share my heart, I honestly desire to seek the Lord and know that His heart is to be first in my life and in all of ours. 

Also, please pray as this is from an email one of our staff had sent out asking for prayer this past week. We have felt discouraged, people have questioned if they should stay on the leadership team, I have personally felt very overwhelmed and just a sense of general anxiety that has been hard to pinpoint. All that to say…we really need you to pray right now. Pray against the strongholds of the enemy. One HUGE stronghold here is the lack of community on this campus. Aloha is a very specific word with many meanings depending on the context, but its most common use other than a greeting or salutation is LOVE. The enemy does not want God’s LOVE to penetrate hearts. He does not want a community of Love to rise on our campuses so please pray that God’s 'Ohana of Aloha would begin to come into fruition. Thank you.


In all of this I've felt like I've needed to just really focus on my time seeking the Lord and to seek fulfillment from Him and Him alone... so please don't be offended if I disappear for a little while. I will continue to blog as I can to keep things updated. Please pray for this weekend as well as we will be heading out to the North Shore for our annual Fall Getaway with over 40 students signed up right now. Pray that our building of community would start to really happen this weekend and that our students would feel connected and feel the love of Jesus. Our theme is The Inside Out Kingdom and God's heart to heal the broken to reach the broken. 

Listen to this song... :o) I pray that it will speak straight to your hearts and that you are reminded that God's love is sooooo unconditional. I know He loves me and desires me to  be here in this moment with Him. <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hdXnG4aU-Is